I NEED HELP IM SICK OF THIS?

okay im a Girl and every since middle chool people have hated me. im a nice person ashy but i have severe social anxiety and im very insecure so when meeting new people i feel sooooooo out of place! and i always thin in my head oh their talking about" and when there probably not talking about me i say in my mind that they are and form there words to what i think they said but allot times they are talking about me it's the same results every where i go people think im gay because i stare alot but i don't even notice when im staring even at work today and Girl was like ookay um.... ima need you to keep your eyes to your self and she told the manager but i didn't even notice me staring because i was extra nervous because im new and extra uncomfortable around every one even the other female manager is uncomfortable around me(because she thinks im gay) which makes it even worse!! it's like i can't connect with people and im so nervous about being talked about that i act weird and when i act weird then i get talked about!! idk it's like a endless cycle every where i go it happens in highschool/middle school people picked on me said i started and called me gay also idkk! i get soo nervous around people that i spazz and act weird but thats only cause i want them to like me! is that to much to ask for somone to like me??plus on top of that i HATE confrontation so i never adress this to anyone.